Name: Nonamae Satya
Occupation: Passion experiencing, pleasure mapping, creativity stoking Lifeologist
Tell us about yourself!: A snapshot of what I would say about me in this moment...
I live. I learn. I laugh. I travel. I share.
I love you. Yes, you. I already love you.
I want your heart to be fully expressed.
I want others to experience what I am privileged to experience every time I'm in your presence.
I want whatever will have your radiate, have you beam, whatever will allow me to experience that smile that only shows when you're being absolutely you.
When people enter my realm, they activate long-desired passions, reasonable reasons dissolve, they move toward pleasurable creation with velocity. They come away knowing themselves more deeply, knowing the landscape of their heart more deeply, communicating with themselves and the world more clearly. I want that, and so much more, for you...for everyone.
That's what occupies my mind and heart. Always.
I genuinely want to know, how can I participate in bringing forth your genius? How can I play a part in facilitating the creation of a life filled with pleasure and fueled by passion?
What is your definition of what a “wild woman” is?: Free.
What I mean by this is that a wild woman is unabashedly free in her expression, whatever that means for her. Sometimes my view of her is that she is in love with her unique physical expression, she is contented to be naked alone and with her sisters or the world, she embraces the depth of her feeling, she recognizes her blood-gifts, she won’t apologize for her power or sight or lust for living. Her inability to be tamed means that she doesn’t allow lover, or teacher, or societal constructs to dictate her movement in the world, to dictate where she chooses to place her attention, to bind her spirit in any way. No, she is free to express, she is free to be messy, she is free to learn, free to love and be loved, free to open and love into oblivion any boundary she deems constricting to her nature. She oozes sensuality from her eyes, her lips speak truths (both velvety and raw), her hair is wild from the wind, her body is touched by the elements. She yearns for the sun on her yoni, to feel the cool muddy earth between her toes, to feel the caress of wind on her bare skin, to feel the fullness of the moon in her breasts, to dance as animated leaves in late afternoon shadows, to bring delight to the world through her pleasure, to choose a consort and be loved deeply and fully…so fully that she is a muse, a mythical creature come to life, a barely tangible essence…she is love in it’s most raw and wild form. In this moment, this is what a wild woman is to me…and it shifts, almost daily, and certainly from momentary experience to momentary experience.
How would you describe your life was like before starting your journey of being a wild woman?: It’s hard to say, really. I feel as though my journey has had cycles, iterations, since childhood. If I examine my adulthood, I’d say…I was contracted and more scared than I realized. I closed my heart and my legs in a similar manner. I shamed myself for desiring to do, be, or feel differently than what I saw being modeled in the world for women. I was less comfortable in my body, in my personal truths and the expression of them. I felt suppressed, caged somehow, and I couldn’t put my finger on what it was exactly. I wanted more, much more, from life and thought I might never get to experience it. Mostly, I shamed myself for the small truths (what I actually thought/felt. The things that aren’t always “acceptable” or positive)…for not allowing myself to feel and accept everything that arose and was present for me in each moment…that was my cage. It feels, in this moment, like a lifetime ago…like it was never me, like it couldn’t have ever been me. I have great compassion for all of the versions of her that it took to get me here, and that have allowed and inspired me to continue.
What were your biggest insecurities before engaging your inner wild woman?: There were many. Here are some of the ones that pop into my mind immediately:
My body…the insecurity I felt with that had me attacking myself verbally, physically, and emotionally. I was also afraid I was too much for my lovers, myself, and the world (in all truth, I still sometimes feel this way, and I’m working through the layers). I was scared of my desires, I couldn’t even acknowledge some of them. I felt insecure around powerful men and women. I was afraid of being seen deeply, and so, insecure of the layers of my humanity being expressed.
What is your life like now that you are actively engaging your inner wild woman?: Oh, my…how different it is…
It’s ever shifting, it’s exciting, it’s like trembling at the precipice of the everythingness and moving between terror and intrigue, it’s electricity in my hips, it’s the smirk in my eyes, it’s the mischievous smile, it’s the sass, it’s the freedom to live…the permission to really live…it’s the choice to continue, to dive in over and over again, to go further, to see just how feral I can get.
What are your five most favorite aspects of yourself as a wild woman?: How do I choose?!
1. I am a deep feeling sensual being
2. I possess and utilize, sometimes chaotic, powerful expression
3. Presence and holding space like a motherfucker for all that comes into my realm
4. Utilization and understanding of sensory immersion as portals to deeper realms of being
5. My monthly moon/blood-gifts
What was the biggest realization, experience, or transformation that most helped you to start unleashing and embracing your wild feminine nature?: It’s a bit challenging for me to name a specific experience because I believe these shifts occurred, and continue to occur, in a series of activations. However, there are three elements that come to mind immediately.
I think the devastation I felt after the dissolution of my marriage propelled me into liberation from long held outdated paradigms. It shook me so deeply, in that special way that pain shakes us into a raw space of openness to any and all wisdom…the kind of space that allows us to choose deep life shifting paths because everything we grasped onto as a reason to shut down or shut off previously has been removed. There, in that space, I found space…the space to create myself and my “reality”, I touched depth I only had a sense of before then.
I reread David Deida’s book Way of The Superior Man, and felt such resonance with my desires and yearning. I then read Clarissa Pinkola Estes’ book Women Who Run With The Wolves…and I wept in recognition, from there I moved into the cycle I’m still in…the cycle of reclamation.
Around this same timeframe I turned more of my attention on recognition of the divine masculine as well as the feminine. Recognizing the contrast of passive and active (another way of naming feminine/masculine energy), honoring the differences, helped me to know myself more deeply.
What is your favorite part of expressing your wild feminine nature?:My most precious expressions of my wild feminine happen in moments when I’m feeling and sensing deeply into intangible experience and emoting freely, moving freely, filled, radiant, ecstatic, teeming, electric, lusting, breathing as the universe, experiencing profound appreciation of my senses in the “ordinary”, experiencing an essence of divine prophecy, embodying sensual sexual archetypes and living them fully. Or, something like that ;)
When do you feel the wildest?: When I am naked in nature, when I give myself permission to feel fully and freely.
When I am ravaged by a lover of my choosing, which could be a person or an element. This distinction of choosing my lovers vs accepting any lover was a powerful shift that has only occurred in recent years.
Being engaged in electric connections, be they energetic, conversational, or physical.
Relishing and reveling in my own space…alone, in ceremony, drinking wine by candlelight with music while dancing or journaling…things of that nature.
Why did you decide to participate in Wild Women Unveiled?: I’m inspired by any woman tapping into their wild expression, and I hope that my flavor might resonate with someone on the path. I hope they’ll reach out and connect, and that we’ll grow together in the co-creation of ourselves and the next wild woman iteration, that together we can forward the reemergence of elder wisdom and the emergence of a new guardianship. I hope that our connections will cast a wide net and facilitate the invitation of more and more women into the fold, into the discovery of their own becoming…and the power of that.
What is your message to other women out there who are just beginning their journey as a wild woman, or haven’t started yet but feel the call of the wild woman speaking to their soul?: Follow each and every pull of your passion, every spark of curiosity. Be ok with getting messy, with expressing in ways you don’t have a reference for, with “getting it wrong”. Be generous with yourself, apply as much compassion and acceptance as you can, and release as much judgement as you can. Hold every woman’s heart as you always wish yours had been held and cared for. Cultivate trust in flow, higher navigation, and other humans. Meld with the elements and the many other peoples that inhabit this realm of existence, learn from them. Accept that you are all things because you have the capacity to be all things, from there, choose the flavor of expression you wish to embody. Wake each day with the questions: What is the experience I’d like to feel today? Is this what i want? How can I create it even better?