Name: Nessa Goodwin-Clairmont
Occupation: Gentleman of Leisure (Unemployed, Free, Between Jobs... whichever you prefer!)
Tell us about yourself!: I adore psychology, biology, space, and learning: I’m a bit of an obsessive autodidact. I have a passion for health: anything to do with mental health, and more recently fitness. I’m an artist, and I love wildlife gardening. I love being near the forest and the ocean… and by near I mean in. I love climbing and swimming! I’ve also been on a spiritual journey lately, but I’m a big believer in personal, intuitive, “find your own path” kind of spirituality. I love Taoism, Buddhism, Paganism, any kind of ancient knowledge.
What is your definition of what a “wild woman” is?: A wild woman is her own authority. She is instinct, primal, and strong yet gentle. She is deeply connected: to herself, nature, life, and the source.
How would you describe your life was like before starting your journey of being a wild woman?: I was born wild. I was raised by the forest and the ocean. I grew up climbing trees, catching bugs and tadpoles and salamanders, swimming from May until October in the Atlantic Ocean.
I did however, repress my wildness for a time when I was a bit older. Teens to early twenties. I was in the closet as a teenager (bisexual). Instead of pursuing my passion after I graduated, I pursued a hobby. It was easier/cheaper/closer to home and that’s where my best friend at the time was going.
Letting others influence my decisions is my biggest weakness when I try to “tame” myself.
I let myself stay stuck in roles that are severely detrimental to my soul. Retail, phone monkey, customer service, monotonous, or assembly-line style work. Routine and boredom. The cycle of “unemployment and underemployment”.
I let myself stay in situations that just “feel wrong”. Like I’m cut off from the rest of the world (nature, life and wildness). Sometimes I've felt hopeless. I've had many days I didn't want to live.
What were your biggest insecurities before engaging your inner wild woman?: My weirdness for sure! My passion for the environment and my activist tendencies. I was embarrassed of my strength and my sensitivity.
My masculinity and my femininity. I wasn't comfortable with either, fully. Now I’m learning how to embrace both.
Stigma was probably my biggest issue. I was embarrassed about my anxiety, depression, SAD, grief, addictions.. my general sensitivity, my empathy, crying over animals and being really affected by world issues.
I was really hung up on all of my flaws and imperfections.
What is your life like now that you are actively engaging your inner wild woman?: I feel a lot more like my true self. The one I knew when I was very young. I feel more like the person I’ve always aspired to be. More confident. It’s a little scary! But so worth it.
It’s given me back my faith in the world. It’s brought the right people into my life: letting me meet the members of my soul tribe. My interactions and connection with nature, plants, animals (including people), the forest, the wind, and the ocean feel so much deeper.
I feel not as lost… or rather, I’m now at peace being “lost in my inner wilderness”.
I spent more time on things I genuinely love. Like my art, gardening, reading… even if I feel like it’s not “getting me anywhere”. I let myself have what I love, because I deserve to be happy as anyone else. It makes me feel like Mother Nature herself, helping to feed the bees and birds (and inadvertently the deer).
I feel more like my instincts and choices are validated. I have more faith in myself. I trust myself more. I love myself more. I think that’s the best part, the radical self-love and self-acceptance.
What are your five most favorite aspects of yourself as a wild woman?:
Strength: I feel sexy and confident, stronger inside and out.
Gratitude: more appreciation than I knew was possible.
Awareness: a new level of consciousness and awakening.
Grace: being able to surrender to what life throws at me without getting drug down.
And finally: Freedom. I feel more free to be myself. I don't try to reign myself in as much as I used to.
What was the biggest realization, experience, or transformation that most helped you to start unleashing and embracing your wild feminine nature?: The BIGGEST would have to be my depression and anxiety, grief and addictions... and some soul-crushing jobs as a cherry on top. All those things really brought me back to my truth. They made me realize how much I needed to be outside, and how detrimental it is to ignore my true nature.
Exercise gave me some of my power and confidence back. Rewilding brought me back to myself and showed me how to unleash.
Anything that got me out of my comfort zone and learning more about myself. Running in an election and meeting my soul tribe.
What is your favorite part of expressing your wild feminine nature?: Living from the inside out. Feeling like I’m fully embodying my true self. Authenticity. Depth. Rightness. Belonging. Doing what I was born to do.
When do you feel the wildest?: In the forest! Away from civilization. Swimming in the ocean. Being barefoot. Running and working out.
Why did you decide to participate in Wild Women Unveiled.: To be part of something bigger than myself: something that’s making a huge difference in the world.
What is your message to other women out there who are just beginning their journey as a wild woman, or haven’t started yet but feel the call of the wild woman speaking to their soul?: Trust your instincts. Don’t give up. What we’re looking for takes time. It’s a magic we can’t describe in words. As soon as we come back in to talk about the power of the wild, it’s already lost some of it’s magic. Don’t let that deter you! Or slow you down, fool you, or think you imagined the difference and truth you felt.